Temporarily forgot that I had my part-part-part time job’s (I work at a doughnut shop once in a while when they’re short staffed) holiday getty 2/5 at night. We got there at 7:30, left around 9:00, home around 9:20, sleep immediately, and I still only got maybe 4 hours of sleep. Obviously waking up early didn’t happen today.
I don’t know why my sleep has been so restless and terrible, but I think I can fix at least one factor: alcohol. It seems that when I drink alcohol later than 8, even if it’s just finishing a glass, my sleep is heavily affected. So, I will no longer have alcohol after 7:30pm on nights before an early morning wake-up time.
Drank wine last night with dinner, but maintained my cut-off of 7:30pm, not sure it’s early enough but I did sleep a little better.
Woke up this morning at 5:30- yay! (alarm was set for 5 so I got some snoozes).
Got dressed, brushed teeth, etc. and made it to the gym at about 6. Worked out ’til about 7 then got ready for work and left to get here early (I needed to finish our reconciliations and get them scanned and sent).
Anyway- it was a good day and I’m a little sleepy but I’m hoping being sleepy will mean a good night’s rest, and if I can keep this up for the rest of the week, maybe next week I can get back to 4:30am’s!
Woke up early, 5:45, even after a poor night’s sleep. Got to the gym at 6, had a quick workout, and then everything fell apart.
After a ton of commotion and trying to get him to the emergency room my bird, Pico, died.
I couldn’t do anything. My boyfriend finally said that I had to eat, so we got some donic to tide over ’til a chinese place opened. I cried and moped and snuggled and Netflix-binged for the rest of the day. I took some meds to help me sleep and I still woke up in the middle of the night.
It’s still hard to believe he’s gone. Getting out of bed was impossible. I got out of bed at almost 8am; I just wanted to stay there and pretend like yesterday didn’t happen. I got up, and went through the motions to get to work. I think my sleep isn’t going to pan out well for a while.
Today marks the anniversary of our first date so we woke up around 8, got dressed (which took me forever and a day), and went to a place that opened at 11:30 for “brunch”. had a pretty lazy day, burgers at the place we had our first date for dinner, but stayed up ’til around 11 and I did not keep my cap-time for cutting myself off of wine. I didn’t sleep so well, which I had a feeling would happen, but it’s practically a holiday so I cut myself some slack
Woke up around 8:30, netflix binged, fell asleep at 4-ish, woke up at 5-ish, and went to sleep around 9 but didn’t actually fall asleep ’til 11. Note to self – laziness and naps are bad for sleep schedule.
Alarm was set for 4:30, and I actually woke up; but then it was cold and ugly outside and I didn’t feel like going outside to go the gym, there wasn’t a bunch to do around the apartment, and my boyfriend slept like crap so he didn’t want to get up, and these are all terrible reasons but, regardless, I decided to just got to the gym after work and sleep some more.
I can’t sleep. This had been a long time issue for me, but falling asleep is hard and staying asleep tends just not to happen. Tonight I slept at 10:15 and was completely restless ’til I woke up at 6:45.
Still working on fixing my sleep schedule, I went to sleep at 9:30. I woke up a little before 2:00, stayed up til 2:30, and was up again around 4. I tried sleeping and let myself recoup ’til 7am.
Rather than try to keep catching up, I thought maybe trying the force-myself-awake route might work again, so I went to bed at 9:30 or so, slept closer to 10am, and woke up at 4:30. And I got up, went to the gym, it was great. But then I was exhausted all day.
Thanks to my exhaustion, I fell asleep at 9:30 but was up between 2:30 and 5am for the most part and truly felt like I hadn’t slept at all, so I stayed in bed ’til 7am. I’m not sure if it’s all my bad dreams, regular restless sleep, or the cold weather but my usual bad sleep is even worse, and nothing seems to be fixing it. At least it’s the weekend tonight.
Went to bed around 9 pm and slept at around 10pm; one of my longest fall-asleep times.
Pro-tip for waking up early on a weekend- have a job. Today I worked my once-in-a-while part-part-time job at the doughnut shop.
Had to be there at 9 and it’s a bit of a drive so I wok up at 8am to get ready. After work we went to my friend’s bday party and left early because I was so tired.
Yep, still tired. Slept around 10pm, woke up at 8am which should be plenty of sleep except this is some of the most restless sleep I’ve had. I was up at 2am, 4am, and 5am and all the rest in between was barely asleep. Twice I woke up in the middle of a bad dream. I don’t know why they keep happening. Today I napped for a little over; just clonked out in the middle of a tv show around noon.
When we decided on dinner (tilapia, mac’n’cheese, green beans), I ate some but was just craving sugar, so I poured myself a glass of amaretto. After I finished it, my boyfriend poured me another glass, too tall, and I got sick. We both place the blame on ourselves for how sick I got, but I’ve got to think it was more than the alcohol because I’ve never been that sick from that few drinks. Needless to say, this was a poor night’s’ sleep.
Woke up in time for work after blackout sleep and made it through the day pretty well- just tired and slow-going but no headaches or anything indicative of having had too many drinks, which still makes me wonder if the fish may have played a part.
Also learned that the gym is closed for the week so I now officially have no motivation for waking up early this week> I just don’t know how I started out so well then just completely started failing. I do have some ideas, though:
- My diet changed, and then my needs of my diet changed. I, even without waking up early, am genuinely working out 3 times a week minimum and sometimes more, and I’m seeing differences in my body between muscle gain and fat loss. I think I haven’t been fueling my body properly for a few weeks and it’s affecting my sleep.
- While I try to be consistent, I’m maybe not consistent enough. I sleep any time between 9pm and 10pm and maybe that’s too big of a window.
- My sleep has definitely been worse since we lost Pico. I have significantly more frequent bad dreams and restless sleep and I think it will just take time before this changes.
I think I’m going to take a few weeks off of trying to wake up at 4:30 until my heart heals some and my sleep improves. It hasn’t even been two weeks and I think my body is trying to tell me to slow down for now.
We finally got Pico back so maybe once we put him to rest somewhere I’ll find some closure. I think about him throughout the day, but I think at night I mourn more and worry about Max since the doctor’s were unable to determine what caused Pico’s untimely and unexpected passing.
This has definitely been a worthwhile experiment and while I haven’t been able to consistently get up at 4:30, I am much better at going to sleep at a reasonable hour and I do wake up earlier on weekends. I think once I get my sleep in order again, waking up early will be more feasible.