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New 10k Plan

 

 

Made this plan myself so I know I can stick to it. Today was supposed to be day 1 but I have a sore throat so I’m going to rest it, especially since I’m staying late at work.
(Today, the day of this post, is the Friday on the “Partial” week.)

I’ve got just over seven weeks ’til a 10k and I want to be able to run the whole thing without stopping, however slowly. I also wanted a training plan that suited me and my busy schedule.

Key:

  • ? / days where I didn’t want to out a workout because being able to work out is questionable that day (ex: plane landing in CA, potential all-day plans, etc.)
  • – / days I know I won’t work out (ex: have a “thing” right after work, like writing group or lecture.)
  • cyclebar / spinning class
  • hot yoga / hot yoga
  • rest/stretch / a rest day with stretching throughout to prevent soreness
  • workout + x mi / a workout day with a run either before or after the workout

 

I laid out my weeks, put in the “days off”, and started filling in a schedule. I tried to make sure my total mileage doesn’t increase too much from week to week, that my longest run doesn’t increase too much from week to week, and that I run three days a week with a good mix of other activities. It’s in my google drive and I’m going to start putting the workouts in my Google Calendar as “tasks” to make sure I get them done.

Posting  just to show that if you can’t find a training plan that works for you, you can make your own, too!

 

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Shout Out from Yoga

Alright, so among other things in trying to be an all around better me, I’ve realized I need some mindfulness time. For me, I’ve enjoyed yoga for a long time and I just kind of never picked it back up when I moved out to CO. I started doing it again by way of hot yoga. This post isn’t about how much I love yoga or hot yoga or the particular place I currently practice at and their instructors/atmosphere.

I know that we’ve like, never, not once talked about my body image issues. but something I’ve been trying to do lately is give myself less of a hard time. Like, first of all, my boyfriend still finds me attractive, I’ve had friends say (with no obligation) that I still look great, and at the end of the day the thing I hate most is that my clothes don’t fit and that I have more cellulite than ever which- now that it’s warming up and I’ve taken a recoup period and done some training prep- running should really help fix. Out of all of the above, the biggest issue is my self confidence and my wanting to hide my cellulite- which, by the way is a totally normal phenomena; we, as humans, get cellulite.

I overheat, a low. By the end of any race I can think of, I cross the finish line in a sports bra, leggings. and Flip-Belt. Being over-clothed, even in breathable fabric, started to put a damper on my workouts, so I made a new resolution to wear what I needed for a good workout, that literally no one cared what I looked like or what I was wearing. But see, that’s the thing. I didn’t have confidence in my body/outfit, I decided no one cared. But I care.

Then, two days ago at hot yoga, I had this woman give me my inspiration and she doesn’t know it, but she’s my confidence model; like a role model but I don’t know her that well so just on the bad-ass confidence front. I show up in shorts and a sports bra because last class I wore leggings and a sports bra and still overheated. I seem to be almost hiding behind my yoga mat as I walk in, hugging it so that it’s perpendicular to the floor conveniently hiding most of my body as I pass the few people already present.

I simultaneously realize I need to put the yoga mat down and remind myself, again, no one is looking at me or cares what my body looks like. I start setting up and doing what feels comfortable as I try to adjust to the temperature and humidity in the room. A few more people walk in, and then it’s about five minutes until class officially starts.

She walks in after most of us are set up. She’s a quite a bit thicker than me, in shorts and spaghetti strap top all matchy matchy, cellulite out without a care, tan, and pretty. She sets up her mat at the front of the room and grabs a block. Once her space is gathered, she fixes her hair/bun and I notice she also has on a white band, gold trim, white face, gold hands, cute as hell watch on. Like, not a fitness band, not anything useful for class, just a dank accessory because she can. I already want to be this woman when I have the money for the matchy matchy outfit.

Class starts and she is doing most of the poses in a very “I know my limits” but, in a graceful and purposeful way, using her block, taking her breaks, and lookin’ like a normal person doing yoga because she wants to do yoga not because she has something to prove by way of strength or flexibility.

I want that level of self-assuredness and confidence.

And for the rest of class, I keep thinking this to myself. I want her level of confidence. I want that. But how?

So, this, I don’t have an answer for. I’ve decided from now on to tell myself I look good, to believe it and to internalize it when my boyfriend compliments me, and to not battle off compliments from others. I hope to carry myself better and smile more and hope that my general happier-ness will carry over in to more self confidence. I also hope I can reach the state of confidence and self-worth of my figure before I lose the weight/cellulite so that I know it’s real and will last.

So shout out to this woman, and all the other women, who may not have the magazine/stereotypical/insta model bodies but have the confidence and shine of Beyoncé. I will join your ranks, but until then, thank you for showing me what exuding beauty and confidence is like. Thank you for positively motivating me to love my body. Thank you woman in the blue matchy matchy outfit at yoga.

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Continuing to Fail ’til it leads to Success

So, lately I feel like I’m doing a lot of failing, and failure is okay. So I’d like to address what the attempt was that lead to the shortcoming, the shortcomings themselves, and chances I’ve taken that lead to success- or failure and then success and then failure and then success.

  • Graduating and my job search: As two of my cousins hit the point where they are considering life after graduating, or life after a nice detour after graduating, I think back about when I graduated from my undergrad degree. I tried really hard to get a job anywhere but home, but LinkedIn wasn’t quite what it is today and job boards weren’t either. The sites that had job opportunities through my school ended up having either highly specialized positions or sales positions disguised with other titles. I didn’t want to stay in my college town so I moved home, was jobless for a few months, and then got one bad job, on to the next, and on to the next where I would work my way up and over in a great company that really valued it’s employees. I was, in this position, finally using my education and after a year decided to enroll in further education and get my Master’s, and they were pretty flexible.
  • Leaving Florida: I never wanted to stay in Florida. I just wanted to go, anywhere, but I had to stay when I first graduated due to the above, but now I had experience and was almost done with my MHA. I also had a boyfriend, who, at the time went from good to not so great to neglectful and when we broke up, I really had no reason to stay. I did some narrowing, decided on a new state/city, and left. It was great! I loved it instantly. new job, new home, new sites, new people, and a fresh start. That is, until I got “let go”.
  • Being laid off: Great job should have hired me as a contract position. They needed someone to lay the groundwork for an HR professional with lost of experience but instead, hired me then “reorganized management” and let me go. In November. The expensive time of year where plane tickets and presents get bought and no one is hiring except the service industry. I put on my big girl pants, worked a few jobs, landed a new – real- job in January, and left or scaled back the other jobs.
  • Getting the new job: I applied a lot. A lot. To anything and everything I was qualified for that would hold a decent title and pay a decent salary. I got a lot of responses too. Mostly negative ones or the cold shoulder, some rounds of interviews that I didn’t make the cut for. There was a post for a job I wasn’t qualified for at one of the biggest healthcare systems in the area. I reached out to the recruiter on the post, quick elevator speech/cover letter and my resume and she hooked me up with an interview. I nailed it, got the job, went through the motions, and then got bored because I was overqualified. I got a new new job and I love it. I work for a small specialized medical office and my coworkers are great. I’m good at my job, really good at it, and had I not worked for the previous job I wouldn’t have had one peice of experience they were looking for. At that job I was overqualified, therefore underpaid, and happy but not 100% in my element. We can mark that a C- – so not failure, but not great; that did lead me to where I am now, though.
  • Dating: I, when I got out here, also started dating. That sucked. I went on so many super duper most-awkward-thing-that-has-ever-happened-ever dates. I’d download an app (or three), go on some dates, decide dating was stupid and I should focus on me, then delete apps, and repeat a month later. I finally made the resolution to use my Super Like in the Tinder App. I figured maybe those great catches were’y sure about my investment level in the “likes”, plus, it would tell them I super liked them and maybe give me an edge in getting “liked” back. Failed dates, non-returns on even the super-likes, being ghosted, and a lot of let-down later a really cute guy I super-liked liked me back. He thought maybe I super-liked him by mistake and we hit it off. Our in-app conversations were getting sparse so I let him know that I wanted to meet him and gave him my number. We both apologized about how terrible we were at using the app for communicating, met for our first date (which was amazing) and really hit it off. Now, we live together.
  • Dieting/Schedule change: I’m not even going to bother linking these related posts.
    I have tried so many times and so many different ways to diet, exercise more, or to change my schedule. Now, the week after Cameron’s mom visited and my parents visited and I thought I could really get a handle on things, I caught my dad’s cold. I was so sick I slept through all of Sunday, woke up with a cold sore Monday, am currently on tea, chicken broth, Nyquil and Dayquil to try to avoid getting any worse, and definitely cannot get out of bed without at least 8 hours of sleep. Working out before work is not feasible and part of me thinks working out while sick might not be a great choice. This – trying to get my body back in shape and on a schedule, one is failure after failure for me.
    But, Cameron thinks I still look *____instert compliment here___*, and life happens. I do go to spinning and/or yoga at least once a week and the weather is finally changing to the point that I keep hoping for a 50* or warmer morning so I go for a run. I’m also signed up for a 5k, a 10k, and am considering a virtual race where participants run 100mi over the course of three months.

I guess, in general, in all those moments I felt like crying, did cry, felt exhausted and depressed, and just wanted to give up. And maybe I did; maybe I did give up for a few seconds or a few days, but then reality set in, my drive to not only survive but thrive kicked in, and I took one more step (or ten) and got the (sometimes small) win. I’m still failing in some ways, lots of ways, but also feeling so much happier and successful on a regular basis. And I’m okay with failing, especially since I now recognize my strength to get through it and the strength I have in the people in my corner when my own strength is not enough.

“What do we do when we fall off the horse? We get back on.”
– Maury Ballstein, Balls Models


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Diet Update // Food Log 2/1-3/3

So I tried doing some form of an extreme diet to kick my body back into gear (read here) and it really helped to start but after a while I realized that not enough protein and little to no carbs was not sustainable while I was trying to build muscle. I was getting headaches frequently and was starting to feel light headed or weak.

I did, early on, notice changes in my figure. My boyfriend did, too. Nothing crazy dramatic, but certain pants were fitting better and he noticed more definition and less mass in my legs. This is part of what drove the diet change; I was merging from fat loss to muscle gain and I needed to be sure my body had what it needed.

Anyway, the log starts with that diet, then my adding in meat and carbs here and there, then straying (hey, nobody’s perfect), straying heavily, being put on a “I messed up my stomach and need to fix it” diet, and now just trying to eat healthy without really constricting myself. Having started where I did, even with a month of straying, has made it so that my day to day meals, even unconstrained, are more healthy. A little voice has grown inside and guides me to a healthier option, right-sized portions, and scaling dinner back if I let loose at lunchtime.

Doing the diet I did for a good two or three weeks was perfect for me, and now I feel like I’m in a good place to eat a diet that I can sustain long term.

Logging my food isn’t helping as much as I thought it would, but I do think it lends to the conscientiousness of balancing my meals.

The log itself, if you’re interested, is below.


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February 1, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Egg 160
Lunch
Cole Slaw 180
Corn On The Cob 290
Dinner
Turkey Taco Salad 520
Daily Totals
Calories 1,150
Fat 52 g
Fiber 23 g
Carbs 91 g
Sodium 1,245 mg
Protein 77 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 2, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Pickle Spear 5
Lunch
Falafel 320
Babaganoush 140
Mediterranean Salad 247
Dinner
Trail Mix 175
Daily Totals
Calories 887
Fat 42 g
Fiber 17 g
Carbs 51 g
Sodium 2,158 mg
Protein 39 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 3, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Trail Mix 175
Lunch
Truffle Fries 355
Chicken Fried Steak 470
Bloody Mary 180
Mimosa 120
Dinner
Chicken Broth 50
Daily Totals
Calories 1,350
Fat 54 g
Fiber 5 g
Carbs 93 g
Sodium 7,560 mg
Protein 32 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 4, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Portobello Mushrooms 6
Tomato, Raw 4
Cabbage, Raw 7
Egg 160
Lunch
Crab Rangoons 80
Spring Roll 80
Dumplings 38
General Tso’s Chicken 360
Rice 103
Wonton Soup 120
Dinner
Wine, Red 79
Cheez-It, Double Cheese Snack Mix 173
Daily Totals
Calories 1,210
Fat 33 g
Fiber 10 g
Carbs 153 g
Sodium 3,521 mg
Protein 60 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 5, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Peaches 157
Lunch
Carrots, Sliced 105
Green Beans 60
Dinner
Coconut Shrimp 233
Charcuterie Sampler 360
Cuban Sandwich 166
Red Wine, 6 fl oz 150
Daily Totals
Calories 1,231
Fat 43 g
Fiber 17 g
Carbs 121 g
Sodium 4,554 mg
Protein 39 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 6, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Mandarin Oranges 315
Lunch
Cucumber 14
Romaine Lettuce 20
Hummus, Original 110
Avocado Salsa 30
Carrot, Baby, Raw 29
Dinner
Chicken Breast 204
Water Chestnut, Chinese, Canned 18
Baby Corn 30
After Dinner
Zebra Cake 270
Cosmic Brownie 255
Daily Totals
Calories 1,295
Fat 32 g
Fiber 17 g
Carbs 202 g
Sodium 1,173 mg
Protein 11 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 7, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Peaches 157
Lunch
Edamame 160
Mongolian with Vegetables & Tofu, Original 728
Dinner
Blueberry Scone 55
Chai Tea Latte, Medium 250
Daily Totals
Calories 1,350
Fat 31 g
Fiber 22 g
Carbs 208 g
Sodium 3,374 mg
Protein 53 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 8, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Jumbo Popcorn Chicken Medium 380
Natural-Cut Fries Small 250
Lunch
General Tso’s Chicken 360
Fried Rice 163
Crab Rangoon 240
After Dinner
Cosmic Brownie 255
Daily Totals
Calories 1,648
Fat 61 g
Fiber 9 g
Carbs 211 g
Sodium 3,289 mg
Protein 63 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 9, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Chicken Biscuit 220
Bacon & Gravy Biscuit 450
Lunch
Salad 123
Tuna, Canned In Water 191
Daily Totals
Calories 984
Fat 39 g
Fiber 6 g
Carbs 75 g
Sodium 2,507 mg
Protein 62 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 10, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Bloody Mary 180
Prosciutto, Mushroom & Arugula, Medium 320
Street Taco, Chicken 280
Dinner
Wine, Red 79
Burger 590
Fries 405
Daily Totals
Calories 1,854
Fat 80 g
Fiber 9 g
Carbs 147 g
Sodium 2,860 mg
Protein 89 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 11, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Prosciutto, Mushroom & Arugula, Medium 160
Egg, Chicken, Hard-boiled 154
Orange Juice 83
Chicken Salad 188
Dinner
Fried Rice 163
General Tso’s Chicken 240
Daily Totals
Calories 988
Fat 35 g
Fiber 5 g
Carbs 105 g
Sodium 1,830 mg
Protein 59 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 12, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Prunes 100
Morning Snack
Mandarins 128
Lunch
Green Beans, Cut 52
Artichoke Hearts 70
Afternoon Snack
Dark Chocolate Almonds 230
Pirate’s Booty, with Aged White Cheddar 70
Dinner
Fried Cheese Curds 893
Boneless Wings, Small, Buffalo 1,080
Daily Totals
Calories 2,623
Fat 74 g
Fiber 27 g
Carbs 241 g
Sodium 4,732 mg
Protein 107 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 13, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Chicken Broth 18
Lunch
Parmesan-Herb Crusted Chicken 765
Dinner
Beer Brat 310
Disaronno Amaretto Liquor 128
Daily Totals
Calories 1,221
Fat 28 g
Fiber 0 g
Carbs 52 g
Sodium 2,700 mg
Protein 11 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 14, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Croissant, Butter 128
Raisin, Golden Seedless 44
Oats 225
Lunch
Whole Wheat Tortillas, Burrito 210
Chicken Salad 188
Mandarins 128
Walnut, English, Dried, Raw 37
Afternoon Snack
Apple Sauce 45
Dinner
Trail Mix 263
Pirouette Creme Filled Wafers, Chocolate Fudge 60
Daily Totals
Calories 1,328
Fat 32 g
Fiber 39 g
Carbs 161 g
Sodium 1,235 mg
Protein 39 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 15, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Egg 160
Beignet 135
Lunch
Chicken Banh Mi Salad (add dressing) 501
Afternoon Snack
Hard Candy, Strawberry Filled 25
Dinner
Peas, Strained 67
Beer Brats 260
Baked Beans 175
After Dinner
Water Crackers 60
Pita Bread, White, Enriched 77
Brie Cheese 84
Hummus, Original 55
Daily Totals
Calories 1,599
Fat 56 g
Fiber 23 g
Carbs 187 g
Sodium 2,167 mg
Protein 94 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 16, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Coconut Chocolate Protein Bar 210
Morning Snack
Hershey Kisses/Silver 26
Lunch
Chicken Breast 240
Taco Salad 316
Dinner
Chicken Breast 180
Green Beans 67
Daily Totals
Calories 1,039
Fat 27 g
Fiber 12 g
Carbs 67 g
Sodium 1,031 mg
Protein 32 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 17, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Chocolate Chips 70
Doughnuts 380
Dinner
Regular Fries 475
Hamburger 700
After Dinner
Wine, White, Reisling 23
Daily Totals
Calories 1,648
Fat 89 g
Fiber 13 g
Carbs 156 g
Sodium 1,060 mg
Protein 50 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 18, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Jumbo Popcorn Chicken Medium 380
Croissonic Breakfast Sandwich Sausage 650
Dinner
Green Beans 3
Tilapia 4
Mac ‘n Cheese 38
Disaronno Amaretto Liquor 0
Daily Totals
Calories 1,075
Fat 72 g
Fiber 3 g
Carbs 61 g
Sodium 2,732 mg
Protein 44 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 19, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Sourdough Nugget Pretzel 229
Banana 90
Lunch
Sliced Oven_Roasted Turkey Breast 150
Romaine Lettuce 7
Whole Wheat Tortillas, SUper Soft 120
Gatorade Lemon Lime 32 Oz. 140
Afternoon Snack
Whole Wheat Tortillas, SUper Soft 120
Nutella 200
Banana 45
Dinner
Gardetto Mix 65
White Rice, Long Grain, Cooked 205
Nutter Butter Cookies, Peanut Butter Sandwich 130
Chicken Breast 60
Pop-tarts, Strawberry, Frosted 205
Daily Totals
Calories 1,766
Fat 34 g
Fiber 38 g
Carbs 295 g
Sodium 3,137 mg
Protein 55 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 20, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Banana 90
Nutella 75
Lunch
Organic Vegetable Soup – Cup 120
Famous House Salad with Dressing 210
Breadstick 140
Mint Patties, Chocolate Covered 60
Dinner
Rotisserie Seasoned Chicken Breast 120
Bakery Bread, Artesano, Golden Wheat 200
Garlic and Fine Herbs Cheese 120
Daily Totals
Calories 1,135
Fat 43 g
Fiber 11 g
Carbs 144 g
Sodium 3,708 mg
Protein 43 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 21, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Chocolate Milk 210
Lunch
Indian Curry 480
Dinner
Sesame Chicken Entree 490
Crab Rangoons 240
Fried Rice 163
Daily Totals
Calories 1,583
Fat 49 g
Fiber 11 g
Carbs 231 g
Sodium 2,723 mg
Protein 60 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 22, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Indian Curry 320
Lunch
Crispy Honey Chicken 312
Dinner
Chicken Breast 120
Tortellini, Three Cheese 230
Daily Totals
Calories 982
Fat 19 g
Fiber 7 g
Carbs 128 g
Sodium 850 mg
Protein 36 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 23, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Orange Juice 83
Egg 160
Lunch
Falafel 320
Dinner
Broth, Chicken, Less Salt 16
Daily Totals
Calories 579
Fat 27 g
Fiber 10 g
Carbs 59 g
Sodium 1,715 mg
Protein 29 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 24, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Sausage, Egg, & Cheese Biscuit 510
Lunch
Oyster, Eastern, Wild, Raw 29
Wine, Table 72
Ravioli, Mushroom 210
Daily Totals
Calories 821
Fat 43 g
Fiber 2 g
Carbs 59 g
Sodium 1,903 mg
Protein 32 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 25, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Banana 90
Lunch
Toast 60
Banana 90
Dinner
Toast 60
Nutella 100
Daily Totals
Calories 400
Fat 9 g
Fiber 5 g
Carbs 75 g
Sodium 16 mg
Protein 7 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 26, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Banana 90
Lunch
Italian Club 700
Dinner
White Rice, Long Grain, Cooked 205
Green Bean, Strained 48
Chicken Breast 60
Daily Totals
Calories 1,103
Fat 31 g
Fiber 8 g
Carbs 140 g
Sodium 2,637 mg
Protein 54 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 27, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Toast 60
Lunch
Broth, Chicken, Less Salt 32
Dinner
Broth, Chicken, Less Salt 64
Daily Totals
Calories 156
Fat 1 g
Fiber 0 g
Carbs 16 g
Sodium 3,329 mg
Protein 21 g
Water 0 fl oz
February 28, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Broth, Chicken, Less Salt 32
Lunch
Broth, Chicken, Less Salt 64
Dinner
Broth, Chicken, Less Salt 32
White Rice, Long Grain, Cooked 205
Daily Totals
Calories 333
Fat 0 g
Fiber 0 g
Carbs 51 g
Sodium 4,436 mg
Protein 30 g
Water 0 fl oz
March 1, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Activia Vanilla Yogurt 100
Apple Carrot Fruit Sauce Crushers 60
Egg 160
Lunch
Green Beans 33
Peanut Butter & Honey Sandwich 300
Broth, Chicken, Less Salt 64
Dinner
Chicken Breast 120
White Rice, Long Grain, Cooked 205
Daily Totals
Calories 1,042
Fat 28 g
Fiber 9 g
Carbs 124 g
Sodium 2,826 mg
Protein 47 g
Water 0 fl oz
March 2, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Egg 160
Activia Vanilla Yogurt 100
Apple Carrot Fruit Sauce Crushers 60
Lunch
Broth, Chicken, Less Salt 32
Peanut Butter & Honey Sandwich 300
Green Beans 33
Dinner
Chicken Breast 120
White Rice, Long Grain, Cooked 205
Daily Totals
Calories 1,010
Fat 28 g
Fiber 9 g
Carbs 123 g
Sodium 1,717 mg
Protein 41 g
Water 0 fl oz
March 3, 2018
Meal Food Calories
Breakfast
Bacon 237
Biscuit 340
Egg 160
Banana Bread 300
Bloody Mary 180
Lunch
Coke 139
Dinner
Boost, Calorie Smart, Rich Chocolate 190
Daily Totals
Calories 1,546
Fat 66 g
Fiber 6 g
Carbs 155 g
Sodium 2,838 mg
Protein 48 g
Water 0 fl oz

Life is out to Get Me

*Sorry this is late*

I mean, really, it’s out to get all of us, right? I’m all for “set goals, exercise, educate yourself, be your best, be a good person”… and I agree. But there’s things we just can’t control.

First, I lost a piece of my heart with the loss of a pet.
Then, a string of bad days at work. Nothing terrible, just your run-of-the-mill bad days.
Then someone broke a mirror at the gym in my complex and they closed the gym until it’s fixed. (Which, by the way, I still don’t understand. Like, close it to clean up the mirror, open it, and then close it for installation day or whatever.)
Then My stomach decided nothing I eat is okay. For two days straight I had pretty much nothing but broth. No other symptoms, just a denial of food as nutrition. I tried plain chicken yesterday and it didn’t go well.
Also, I had lower back pain for like 48 hours and have no idea why.

Word around town is it’s either stress or my bouncing diet or both. I just think I that I’ve hit a bad [insert time frame here].

When it rains, it pours. Luckily, it can’t rain forever.

As for work, today is a whole new day and I still love my job and my coworkers.

The gym, well, without being able to eat I’m not sure how much exercise I could handle anyway but if my stomach adjusts over the weekend, I’m lucky to live right across from a gym and hopefully they have a one week trial period (since my front office thinks the gym will reopen on the 10th). It’s also warming up so I might go for a short run, and I’m the least opposed to a video-guided yoga or light-workout session at home.

Diet-wise, I’m on a pretty strict diet set by my boyfriend to try to force my stomach to recognize that food is good for me. Basic foods in varying forms, but essentially eating the same breakfast for a week, same lunch, and same dinner. He thinks it’ll help create a more expected routine somewhere between stopping my stomach from being scared and forcing it to digest real food.

The lack of nutrients isn’t helping my mental state, and the lack of nutrients forcing a lack of energy is definitely affecting me in other ways – like lack of energy to exercise which tends to help my mental state, and I’m definitely the hangry type so my lack of nutrients has me on a short temper which is likely not helping my work or home life.

I’m currently, much of the time, drained. I think I’m most upset because I don’t know why this is happening.
I have no other symptoms, it’s been enough days that I would think “this” would have passed by now, and I’m angry and frustrated that I tried so hard to eat right and exercise and then this sets me back in so many ways, and I just don’t feel good.

This too shall pass. (Proverb)
All of it.
I’m not loving it, but I’m lucky that I have one more work day before the weekend and that my boyfriend cares enough to have figured out what might help and went out of his way to pick up the groceries necessary to try to fix me.

Bad things happen. For me, they come in waves.
Monsoons subside and I will rebuild.

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Radical Schedule Change: Week 4/5 Update

2/6
Temporarily forgot that I had my part-part-part time job’s (I work at a doughnut shop once in a while when they’re short staffed) holiday getty 2/5 at night. We got there at 7:30, left around 9:00, home around 9:20, sleep immediately, and I still only got maybe 4 hours of sleep. Obviously waking up early didn’t happen today.
I don’t know why my sleep has been so restless and terrible, but I think I can fix at least one factor: alcohol. It seems that when I drink alcohol later than 8, even if it’s just finishing a glass, my sleep is heavily affected. So, I will no longer have alcohol after 7:30pm on nights before an early morning wake-up time.

2/7 
Drank wine last night with dinner, but maintained my cut-off of 7:30pm, not sure it’s early enough but I did sleep a little better.
Woke up this morning at 5:30- yay! (alarm was set for 5 so I got some snoozes).
Got dressed, brushed teeth, etc. and made it to the gym at about 6. Worked out ’til about 7 then got ready for work and left to get here early (I needed to finish our reconciliations and get them scanned and sent).
Anyway- it was a good day and I’m a little sleepy but I’m hoping being sleepy will mean a good night’s rest, and if I can keep this up for the rest of the week, maybe next week I can get back to 4:30am’s!

2/8
Woke up early, 5:45, even after a poor night’s sleep. Got to the gym at 6, had a quick workout, and then everything fell apart.
After a ton of commotion and trying to get him to the emergency room my bird, Pico, died.
I couldn’t do anything. My boyfriend finally said that I had to eat, so we got some donic to tide over ’til a chinese place opened. I cried and moped and snuggled and Netflix-binged for the rest of the day. I took some meds to help me sleep and I still woke up in the middle of the night.

2/9
It’s still hard to believe he’s gone. Getting out of bed was impossible. I got out of bed at almost 8am; I just wanted to stay there and pretend like yesterday didn’t happen. I got up, and went through the motions to get to work. I think my sleep isn’t going to pan out well for a while.

2/10
Today marks the anniversary of our first date so we woke up around 8, got dressed (which took me forever and a day), and went to a place that opened at 11:30 for “brunch”. had a pretty lazy day, burgers at the place we had our first date for dinner, but stayed up ’til around 11 and I did not keep my cap-time for cutting myself off of wine. I didn’t sleep so well, which I had a feeling would happen, but it’s practically a holiday so I cut myself some slack

2/11
Woke up around 8:30, netflix binged, fell asleep at 4-ish, woke up at 5-ish, and went to sleep around 9 but didn’t actually fall asleep ’til 11. Note to self – laziness and naps are bad for sleep schedule.

2/12
Alarm was set for 4:30, and I actually woke up; but then it was cold and ugly outside and I didn’t feel like going outside to go the gym, there wasn’t a bunch to do around the apartment, and my boyfriend slept like crap so he didn’t want to get up, and these are all terrible reasons but, regardless, I decided to just got to the gym after work and sleep some more.

2/13
I can’t sleep. This had been a long time issue for me, but falling asleep is hard and staying asleep tends just not to happen. Tonight I slept at 10:15 and was completely restless ’til I woke up at 6:45.

2/14
Still working on fixing my sleep schedule, I went to sleep at 9:30. I woke up a little before 2:00, stayed up til 2:30, and was up again around 4. I tried sleeping and let myself recoup ’til 7am.

2/15
Rather than try to keep catching up, I thought maybe trying the force-myself-awake route might work again, so I went to bed at 9:30 or so, slept closer to 10am, and woke up at 4:30. And I got up, went to the gym, it was great. But then I was exhausted all day.

2/16
Thanks to my exhaustion, I fell asleep at 9:30 but was up between 2:30 and 5am for the most part and truly felt like I hadn’t slept at all, so I stayed in bed ’til 7am. I’m not sure if it’s all my bad dreams, regular restless sleep, or the cold weather but my usual bad sleep is even worse, and nothing seems to be fixing it. At least it’s the weekend tonight.

2/17
Went to bed around 9 pm and slept at around 10pm; one of my longest fall-asleep times.
Pro-tip for waking up early on a weekend- have a job. Today I worked my once-in-a-while part-part-time job at the doughnut shop.
Had to be there at 9 and it’s a bit of a drive so I wok up at 8am to get ready. After work we went to my friend’s bday party and left early because I was so tired.

2/18
Yep, still tired. Slept around 10pm, woke up at 8am which should be plenty of sleep except this is some of the most restless sleep I’ve had. I was up at 2am, 4am, and 5am and all the rest in between was barely asleep. Twice I woke up in the middle of a bad dream. I don’t know why they keep happening. Today I napped for a little over; just clonked out in the middle of a tv show around noon.
When we decided on dinner (tilapia, mac’n’cheese, green beans), I ate some but was just craving sugar, so I poured myself a glass of amaretto. After I finished it, my boyfriend poured me another glass, too tall, and I got sick. We both place the blame on ourselves for how sick I got, but I’ve got to think it was more than the alcohol because I’ve never been that sick from that few drinks. Needless to say, this was a poor night’s’ sleep.

2/19
Woke up in time for work after blackout sleep and made it through the day pretty well- just tired and slow-going but no headaches or anything indicative of having had too many drinks, which still makes me wonder if the fish may have played a part.
Also learned that the gym is closed for the week so I now officially have no motivation for waking up early this week> I just don’t know how I started out so well then just completely started failing. I do have some ideas, though:

  1. My diet changed, and then my needs of my diet changed. I, even without waking up early, am genuinely working out 3 times a week minimum and sometimes more, and I’m seeing differences in my body between muscle gain and fat loss. I think I haven’t been fueling my body properly for a few weeks and it’s affecting my sleep.
  2. While I try to be consistent, I’m maybe not consistent enough. I sleep any time between 9pm and 10pm and maybe that’s too big of a window.
  3. My sleep has definitely been worse since we lost Pico. I have significantly more frequent bad dreams and restless sleep and I think it will just take time before this changes.

 

I think I’m going to take a few weeks off of trying to wake up at 4:30 until my heart heals some and my sleep improves. It hasn’t even been two weeks and I think my body is trying to tell me to slow down for now.
We finally got Pico back so maybe once we put him to rest somewhere I’ll find some closure. I think about him throughout the day, but I think at night I mourn more and worry about Max since the doctor’s were unable to determine what caused Pico’s untimely and unexpected passing.

This has definitely been a worthwhile experiment and while I haven’t been able to consistently get up at 4:30, I am much better at going to sleep at a reasonable hour and I do wake up earlier on weekends. I think once I get my sleep in order again, waking up early will be more feasible.

Pushing Through Pain vs Recovery

*Not a doctor. Remember it’s always best to consult a physician and listen to your body*

There’s a really big gray area after an injury of whether to push through pain or take to take break and recover, and if you choose to take a recovery break, how long and what can you do in the meantime? My only injuries are my legs, because I’m clumsy and a runner, so I can’t speak for other kinds of injuries.
-Article “The Art of Resting
-Article “Recovering from an Injury In 5 Steps
-Article “Owner’s Manual: Not “Just An Ankle Sprain

I’m still working to recover from an injury that I didn’t treat well, and so it’s been brought to my attention that this may be a good piece for others to hear: how do I- me, personally- decide when to push and when not to, and what I’ve learned from my mistake(s).

So first of all, I should’ve seen a doctor. The pain from the injury was excruciating and while it subsided quickly, there was a heavy, lingering pain for quite a while. While it’s very like me to try to suck it up for some time, the length of time I was in pain for without seeing a professional was bad, and I knew it. I didn’t have insurance and I didn’t want to pay, then I got insurance but work was so busy I didn’t want to take off time to get checked out; this was also a mistake.
Henceforth, my health comes before my job, in reasonable terms of course.

Also, I felt pain during the activities I did after the injury and I pushed through. The pain was pretty severe, to the point of limping to finish or searing, almost unbearable pain in all cases and I did them anyway – also a mistake. It is one thing to push through some small-scale pain, it’s wrong to push through intense pain.
If you have a very high pain tolerance, or are pumping a lot of adrenaline, it’s important not to downplay the pain- which is what I did and it was bad.

I rested, as in zero activity, for a few weeks after the November race than started with low-impact training, but I can still feel myself recovering. I’ve lost so much strength. Training is immensely draining and difficult because I can’t push too hard. For one race, I extended what could have been just six months of recover (June injury) into another six months from the race. I’m looking at almost a year total of lost training time due to recovery because I didn’t see a doctor and I didn’t listen to my body.

~Conclusions/Lessons Learned~

As a cautionary tale, go to a doctor.
If you don’t want to or can’t afford a doctor and are sure nothing is broken/fractured, listen to your body. How bad is the pain? Does it increase with exertion?
In my opinion, if after an hour an injury still leaves you limping or in severe pain then it’s no question that you need to dial way back (did I mention to see a doctor?).

As for how to train after, don’t be me and run on hard sidewalk uphill in the cold (or downhill for that matter) or long distances. Try a lower-impact activity like swimming or cycling. No run, no medal, is worth doubling your recovery time, or potentially causing a lifelong issue.
Also a good option, target your core or other areas without using the injured party. I’ve done a lot of upper body and core by either sitting on a bench and working arms or by putting my feet in air and doing crunches. Even leg lifts and lying “Supermans” weren’t bad as long as I didn’t point or flex my toes. Anything that left my knee/ankle out of the equation seemed to work out okay for me. And when I finally saw a doctor, he told me in a nice way that I was an idiot and that I should’ve known better than to push like I did, and that I should’ve seen him sooner.

If you’ve figured out your threshold for training after an injury or have input on other ways to train safely after, I’d love to hear them! Please comment or share links below!

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